"This became a credo of mine: attempt the impossible in order to improve your work."

Above quote from Bette Davis, a famous American actress who was in a lot of movies primarily in the 30s and 40s but continued acting into her later years.



I am learning quite a bit about myself through evaluations. Each of my staff members fills out an eval about me and my performance and it’s been interesting to read them and go over each one. There have been certain trends amongst the staff – I wonder if they pre-discussed everything they would be writing. They are all frustrated with the same things, most of them seem satisfied with everything I’ve been doing, but perhaps the biggest surprise has been that many of them wish that they knew more about me/that I was more open about my life.

For the people that know me well, this might be hilarious. I usually can’t stop talking about anything, and I’m pretty forthcoming with information about me and what’s going on in my world. I came into this job knowing that I didn’t want to have a completely open relationship with my staff. I figured that I would let them define what kind of relationship they would like to have with me. Most of them ask how I’m doing but don’t go more in depth than that, and so I don’t ask anything that’s too personal about themselves. They don’t ask any questions about much of anything, something that’s always been interesting to me since they see my apartment on a regular basis – a place that has many pictures and random artifacts of my life. And for that matter, my office is a pretty personalized place as well. I guess they’ve been waiting for me to volunteer information or at least seem more open about answering questions (although I didn't know that I wasn't).

Instead I've started to let certain things slip....more stories about my life and my friends, important people to me, etc. I've started talking to one of my RAs that stops by my office frequently and I'm curious to see if the information is getting dispersed like I think it might be. I'm trying to come up with a way to handle next semester a little differently. Maybe some sort of icebreaker for the start of the semester that has to do with storytelling. We'll see what I can cook up.

I have to admit that it's been harder than I thought to keep up with my writing this semester. Time just seems to fly by and before I know it weeks have gone by and I've done more than just neglect my posting. I forget to return emails and phone calls and let too much time go by without seeing people - in particular one of my college friends that lives about an hour from me whom I haven't seen since July. Full Time life is way busier than I ever thought it would be.